Let’s be honest…

I started this blog so that I could be honest about the way things were….shame my husband couldn’t be honest with me. Even when I asked the direct question…several times…

So it is true mid-life crisis, this “different life”. Now I understand….It means that he is carrying on with one of my best friends. But…he didn’t leave me “because of that…” – so that’s all right then..? A steamroller lack of respect from 2 people I both confided in, trusted, and counted on. “I never wanted it to happen” doesn’t quite cut it, does it? And from a friend, who should know better, who I helped and supported when her husband walked out on her. With friends like this, who needs enemies?

I had wondered if the army of snails massing by the pond was a portent of something else…and it was…

Whilst I know that it is disaster for both my cancer and diabetes to be stressing and harbouring the most malevolent toxic thoughts, my gut feeling is to wish vitriol and the 7 plagues upon them both, in the hope that this includes the deepest of unhappiness, ill health, despair, loneliness and isolation and even a half of what I’ve been through this year.